Missing You is Never Easy because You aren't Even Mine

From deep in my heart, I know that I shouldn't overreact. I know that I shouldn't expect too many of the things that happened in my life. But, I couldn't handle it. I am just falling and falling. I can't think rightly. I can't. So sorry. I just can't.

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In one of the movies in Indonesia that are based on a popular novel, there is a quote that is really phenomenal. It sounds like this.

"Don't miss me. It's hard. Let me be the one who miss you."

Well, to be honest, I know that my translation is not good enough, but, the essence of that quote would be like that. Hmm, I know that actually, missing someone is never easy. When I am missing someone, I started to look at our old conversations. Smiling and laughed when I realized that it was a very silly convo. Then, I started to listen to a song that match my feeling. The sad song I supposed and I just can hope that I will be better. But the fact said otherwise. I miss him more and more.

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Maybe, it would be not that much hard if that person have a special relationship with me. Sadly, he isn't. He isn't even mine. We did chat. We did that silly convo. We did share each other's stories and hope. But.. I know my position. I am nothing for him. I am just a girl who meets him unexpectedly. Do I want this would be like this till the end of the day? Of course not. I am hoping that our so-called relationship would become reality. 

From now on, I just can pray to God. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. If it is not, please God, make my heart bear with it. Please meet me with another person that much, much, and much better than him.

Sincerely,

Ra

Depok, March 5th 2018, 11.54 PM